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Past Girls I have had about 70 Women in my Life so far, maybe a little more than that I think. I feel fortunate to have had that much experience with Relationships and Love, but I often times feel like I FAILED that many times as much as I received something from those Relationships. Because I really wanted each Relationship I had to WORK. It wasn't like I was on some Conquest trying to see how many Girls I could get. It was not like that at all. And I have a sense of peace at least know in my heart, that every Girl I was with KNOWS THIS, every one of them KNOWS that at the moment I was with them, I was giving them my all. I really tried to be the best I could be with each one. But Relationships are not easy. Every person has their share of little problems that upsets them. Each person responds differently to different things. So each Relationship that I had ended because I discovered incompatibilities with the Girl that I thought I couldn't live with. I will try to break some of them down so you can get a Better Idea of what I am talking about here. My First Girlfriend, a Latina, broke up with me because her Mom asked her to. And I have had this happen to me a couple times after this too. So I have a real Problem with Girls who would Break up with me because her Parents don't like me. My Second True Love really broke my Heart bad, her name was Dawn Stafford, she was a Leo girl, White American, and she Ripped my Heart out, by going with another guy while she was engaged to marry ME! It took me YEARS to get over her. So while I may allow a woman to go with another man to have Sex for fun, I really would rather have a Woman all to myself, and I feel much better committing whole heartedly to the Relationship, instead of playing around. Because this one really hurt me bad, so I know how it feels, and because of this, I wouldn't do it to someone else. I Married my 3rd Love, she was a beautiful Korean Girl, but right after we got married we started talking about Sex, and I was all into BDSM, and she was barely into Sex in any form. So that wasn't gonna work too well. So we got a Divorce. From this experience I learned that Sex before Marriage is absolutely Essential to any good Relationship. Because Marrying someone without having Sex first would be like marrying someone you don't even know. It would be Pure Ignorance and stupidity. Incidentally, this Girl was very nice about the Divorce, it was not a bad separation, I still consider her a friend. There was just no way it was going to work because we were way to different Sexually. I had a few Casual relationships after that, mostly Korean Girls, and one Japanese Girl, they never developed into anything serious because one found another guy she liked more than me, ( who was a Cop) and the others were players who had no interest in serious relationships with anyone, least of all me. The next Serious Relationship I got into (a Chamorro Girl from Guam) ended because I found out she was Married when she told me she decided to try to make things work out with her husband. I was like Oh,…thanks for telling me. After that I fell in Love with another Leo girl who was half Chamorro, and half Filipino, I was crazy about her, but she was Cop and started messing around with one of her fellow Cop Buddies and decided she would rather screw him than me, so she kicked me out of her apartment so she could screw him. I had even given her an engagement ring prior to her doing this. After this I kinda liked the Filipino side of her, so I started thinking about dating Pilipina Girls more I started studying Tagalog and thinking about taking a Trip to the Philippines. But didn't have to wait that long, a nice little Virgo Pilipina in Guam did me very right for a long time. I was actually kind of happy with her for a while. But I got orders to go to the Philippines, and there were SO MANY Beautiful Pilipina Girls in the Pilipines, that I just couldn't resist. But she still wrote me Letters the whole time I was in PI. I look back now and some times I think maybe I should have married her. Once in the Philippines, things were wild and Crazy for me for a while, I was jumping from girl to girl every couple of days just to try to find the right one. I finally Picked a young Aquarius girl about 19 years old to live with me. But after two weeks she left when she found out I liked BDSM. So that Relationship was over. Then I met my first Virgin Girl in my whole life. She was intrancing, she was only 16 at the time, which was legal according to Philippine Law and UCMJ which I was living under at the time. But she showed me an ID that said she was 18. The only thing I cared about was she was really Beautiful, and sweet. She is a Sagittarius girl, very nice, I was really happy to have her. She stayed with me for a while, but then out of the blue she started verbally abusing me, calling me names, acting like I was stupid all the time. This all gave me a very uneasy feeling about the future. I felt like I really didn't want to marry someone who was going to mistreat me all the time. So I broke up with her. We got back together a couple times casually, then she got pregnant from another guy which sealed her fate with him. The next Serious Relationship I had, was with a Beautiful Libra Girl, 20 years old, half Pilipina, and half Japanese, just Gorgeous! That relationship ended because, well, I used to hire all the little homeless kids in the neighborhood in the barrio to watch my girlfriends for me, to make sure they were being Loyal to me. One day the kids came and knocked on my door and told me she was running around with another guy. So I went to have a look. She was a little upset that I was able to catch her in the act. But her reason for leaving me was she didn't like the BDSM life style. Okay with me, - NEXT! The next Serious Relationship I had was a Beautiful Pilipina girl 19 years old, she was AWESOME! Looked like something out of a Magazine! The first night we were together she Cried because she thought I was going to just dump her and forget her. I thought if she likes me that much, I'm gonna keep her. So I did. I lived with her for a year, then I married her and brought her to Hawaii to live with me. One month after she married me, she said her father died, and she had to return to the Philippines, So I had to Cash in my College Fund from the Military to give her the money to go back to the Philippines. Later I found out her father really wasn't dead at all. She had a Boyfriend behind my back in the Philippines. She ran up a $2000.00 phone bill talking to him on the phone every day, then took my college money to go back to see him. When the money ran out she was already pregnant and so she went to a Barrio Tribal Doctor who Crushed the head of the Fetus to perform and Abortion thinking that I would not even k now she was pregnant when she returned to me. But the Fetus didn't abort, it just died inside her, and she had no more money to go to a hospital, so she just returned home and cried to me and told me a story about how she was raped. So I had to pay for all the medical bills, and then on top of everything I gave her another chance to start over. Then all of her girlfriends were harassing her about being married to an American guy, and so she went to a Party and found another Filipino Boyfriend, and got pregnant from him. Then she came home packed her stuff in a Garbage bag and left me. So that's how that story ended, Oh, not quite, I had to file Bankruptcy for all her Debts. From this experience I learned that you can not Trust people. I got stung by her like I have never been stung by a Woman before. Before this I was always Blindly Trusting in Love in a Relationship. But this Relationship taught me just how Cruel the world can be. But I promised myself I was not going to blame all Filipinos for what she did to me, because that would not be right. So at this point I felt like I HAD to find another Pilipina girl to fall in Love with, to prevent me from thinking bad about them. I found many of them, in Hawaii, but I only developed a Serious Relationship with One. She was a Beautiful Sagittarius Girl my second Virgin of my life, she was only 21 years old, her Father HATED me, and told her not even to date me, but she understood that Love is greater than all things, so she Married me after one year of dating. She has a beautiful personality, She is the most Honest Trustworthy Person I have ever met. She has a heart of Gold. We stayed married for 6 years, she was really wonderful for those years, and I was lucky to have her. But we started running a Business one year and this White guy next door to us, thinking that all Filipino Girls like to Screw around, he started bringing her Mcdonalds everyday, and giving her Jewelry and sweet talking her. Mean while I'm just watching to see what is going to happen. Pretty soon she wants to go out to Lunch with him, so I say Sure go ahead. Then she wants to go on a Canoe trip with him, I say Sure go ahead. Then it was Going to the Go Cart Track , and Several other Places, pretty soon they were screwing each other everyday in his Truck while I was running the Business. Then she tells me she has fallen in Love with him, and she doesn't love me anymore- But wait! He tells her he really doesn't LOVE her, he just wants to screw her! Uh-oh folks now what? She decides to go back to Hawaii and Live with her Parents, I buy her a Round trip ticket and tell her she is welcome back anytime. On the way there she meets this other guy who Romances her for a couple weeks, then tells her he wants her to come stay with him. So she agrees. And they lived happily ever after. Meanwhile I got a Divorce from her which was finalized three years ago. After that I decided okay, I really like Pilipinas, but I also like Thai and Japanese girls, and so I need to do a little exploring to see if I might be able to find a little love in THAT direction. So I started Studying Japanese and Thai, and I went to Thailand twice already since then looking for my Dream girl, but so far I have not met her.
I did meet 7 Girls.
Another one said she would Love me forever, then as soon as I left Thailand, she went to work in the Bar and met a guy from England who she decided had more money than me, so she decided to marry him. Then there was Mulliga, a beautiful 19 year old, Thai, Aquarius Girl I had met on one of these Internet Dating Sites. We chatted everyday and night for about 4 or 5 hours a day, every day for about 4 months. She talked me into buying her a Brand New Computer, Paying all her Bills, and buying her the most expensive $500 dollar Nokia Cell phone made. Then I went to Thailand to meet her, and stay with her, and we had fun, I fell Completely in Love with her, then she started leaving me alone in the Hotel for a few days, then coming back, then leaving and coming back, blaming her parents, saying they were very strict and wanted her to come home. When I leave Thailand, I get a few e-mails from an upset Boyfriend who apparently just found out I exist, and then he sends me Time Dated Photos to show me that when she was leaving me alone at the Hotel, she was apparently sucking HIS dick. After all of this I was even willing to give her another chance because I really DID Love her. So I figured if I could work it all out it would be worth it to me. But she herself began to e-mail me and tell me that she really Loved this other Boyfriend, and she didn't love me. So that was the end of that I guess. All the other Relationships I have had in my life were more or less Casual. And I don't think there is anything wrong with Casual Sex, as long as both people understand that it is only a Casual experience. If one of the people think it is Serious, and the other person is only thinking it is Casual, then you have broken a heart. And that is not good Karma. Now I am single, I am using my time to Study things everyday that will enhance the qualities I believe will make me MORE the Person I want to be. More of a Musician, More of a Photographer, More of a Writer, and all the Languages I want to Learn I am Studying, all the Music I want to know about in this World, I research and Listen to, so I will Know who are my favorite people in this world. I look around and research the Girls I would most like to have a Relationship with, because I would like to believe that somehow, anything is possible. The more we feel we are not in Control of our Lives, the more desperate and hopeless life will seem. So I believe that some day, I can meet any Girl I want, some how, as long as I know what qualities I am looking for, if I know the names of the Girls who have the Qualities I like, I feel like maybe some how, some day, I can find Love in this World. That is my Ultimate Dream, My Ultimate Goal.
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