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Here is a List of some of my Most Frequently Asked Questions: Do you Really Swing when you are in Relationships with Girls? No I don't really Swing that much. Basically I understand that sometimes people get really Bored and would like to have sex with someone else once in a While, so I understand this, and I accept it, but in exchange for my Understanding I expect the Woman that is in a Relationship with me to really Respect my Words above those of another man she might have Sex with. What I mean is if I allow a Woman to have sex with another Man, the Catch is, she cannot allow that other man to talk bad about me and Try to talk her into Leaving me. That is what I mean. I need Loyalty from her in exchange for the Freedom I give her. But obviously it didn't work out so well in the Last Marriage I had. Would I do it again? Would I allow the Woman I am with to go with another Man for fun? I think I would because I really do understand the NEED for people to have sex with other people, I understand how it feels, the emotions and thoughts of desperately wanting to experience someone else rather than the same person everyday. So becaus e I understand this, I would probably give any other Woman I am with the same Freedoms I gave other Women in the Past, but I think I might sit down and talk a little more to find out what her true intentions are if she is really looking for another Relationship? Or just having Sex for Fun. Especially in like a Fetish or BDSM environment, people are much more understanding about having Sex with other people for fun, so I think I probably would allow another girl the same freedoms, as long as we had an understanding about her Loyalty to me. Because what actually hurts me more is that She valued all the bad things the other guy said about me, MORE than she valued what I had to say. And that was after she Lived with me for 6 years. So I think THAT is what really broke us up, is she betrayed my Trust in her to value MY Words above those of someone else. I figured she should have known me after 6 years, she should know that I speak the Truth. But I guess she didn't care much about that at the time. Do you find it Difficult to find Women who will Torture you? It really depends on where I am in the World actually. Because in Guam, no I had no Problem, in Hawaii, a little bit because the basic attitudes in Hawaii are more Conservative. In Thailand, No, No Problem at all, it is as if ALL the Thai Girls understand about that already. It's as if it is part of their DNA! They are very understanding in Thailand. In Japan, No Problem, most of the Girls think of it as a Form of Fun for the Weekends. In the Philippines, No, No Problem at all. All the Girls are willing to Learn even if they never did it before. I did have a couple girls in the Philippines who didn't like the idea too much, but that was mostly because of their Religious Beliefs. In Florida, No, No problems, they actually have a large organization in Ft Lauderdale that holds BDSM Parties every weekend. In Michigan where I am now, it is almost Impossible! I am in a Christian Republican Community that thinks that those kind of things are the work of the Devil. So everyone around here thinks I am completely Crazy. So I don't have a lot of Friends here. What do you do when you are not in a Relationship? I usually will go to a Massage Parlor to have a Girl Whip me, or Hire a Girl to Whip me, but here where I am now, there are not very many Asian Girls, and I really Like Asian Girls. I don't really get that Turned on my White Girls. So here in this Situation I mostly just Plan things out, write a lot, and prepare, buy things I will need for the next Session, so when the next time actually comes around it will really be something really Special because I took the time to plan everything out. I mean every DETAIL. Exactly what I want Her to do, and for how long, and I even have Recorded CDs of the Music to go along with each thing she will do to me, I have bought and made Brand New Whips, and things to hurt me with, such as Acupuncture Pins, Razors, Talons (Brass Nails to Scratch me with), Electro-Shock items, Plastic for her to put over my Face, just about everything. The only thing I wait on, is buying her a Knife. Because that is a very special moment, and I want her to be with me by my side when I buy her the Knife just as if it was a Wedding Ring. So that's pretty much what I do when I don't have a Relationship. Here, not much at all except dream about it. I would like to move from this place, but I don't have the means as yet. Maybe soon, but not yet. Did all Your Wives agree to Kill you? No, only two of my Wives agreed to kill me. The Wife who did not agree, and thought I was crazy to even THINK about it, well, we got a Divorce 2 weeks later. I also had one Steady Girlfriend in Thailand I went with for about 6 months, she didn't even want to get Married, she just wanted to Kill me. I liked her attitude a lot, but I think she really didn't love me, she just wanted to see what it would feel like to Kill someone. (that's kind of why the Relationship Ended) I can tell if a Woman really Loves me or not, and if she doesn't really Love me, it kind of feels Pointless to Die for her. If I am killed by a Woman, I want it to be at the Peak of being Madly and Passionately in Love with her, so that LOVE will Last forever after she Kills me, because it will not have a chance to fade away or ever change like other relationships. Whenever she thinks about me, she will always feel that Love we share. That's how I want it to be. Do You ever Switch? When I Fantasize in my Mind some nights I will Switch in my mind, and I will think about Whipping and Torturing the Girl, but at the Same time I have this really strong sense of Envy for the Girl I am thinking about Whipping because I know how it feels. But I have not ever had a really good Switch kind of experience, because usually most girls I have had don't really understand everything, and as soon as it starts to hurt, they want to stop. So I stop. But I often dream of a getting with an Asian girl who would understand everything and might like to have me Whip her once in a while as much as I like to be Whipped. I actually dream of a Girl who will actually try to Nurture my Sexually Sadistic Emotions out of me, because I am very shy and reserved about that side of me. I have no problem being Whipped and Tortured, but I would need a Woman who would really WANT me to Whip her, and be serious about it. Then I think I could really enjoy it. But I never have had a Good Experience Dominating a Woman yet. That w ould be something I would have to work at. But I do fantasize about it sometimes. But when I Fantasize about Whipping and Torturing a Woman, I usually write everything down, so a Woman can do those things to me. But this has helped me understand both the Sadistic and Masochistic Psychology in BDSM. Because I take the time to think both ways sometimes. But more often I think about being Whipped. And I really don't make Plans to Whip a Woman, I have thought about taking Pictures of Woman Chained up, but not actually Torturing them. The key thing is in order for me to really get turned on Sadistically, I would have to KNOW that the Woman REALLY REALLY Wants it. If I had any Doubt at all, I don't think I would enjoy doing it. How did you come to Discover what you wanted and Needed during Sex? It all developed Instinctively within me. I knew I was a little different when I was growing up, because everything that people showed me that was "Supposed" to make me Horny, seemed like Cartoons from another Planet to me. Such as Playboy Magzines, and Naked Pictures of Women. I never got Horny from those things. And When people would show a Porn Movie and hoot and Holler and act like idiots, I would look at them like they were Monkeys in a Cage. I didn't understand anything that was going on with myself Sexually. I Liked Girls a lot, but my attraction was VERY Different than everyone elses. When everyone else chased Girlfriends, they thought about just Fuking them. When I saw a Girl I really Liked, I was trapped in a state of Complete AWE for her, not like she was a Girl, but like ten times more than if she was a Real Queen, or Goddess, or something. It was More than that, I naturally felt like my First Reaction should be to fall to my Knees and Bow to her. That was how I felt as early as First Grade. And when I actually did that to a Girl in Elementary School, she just thought I was Crazy, and went with another guy. So it was a little difficult for me to form any Lasting Relationships until I got about 19 years old. Then my Girlfriends were never really all that excited about Sex at the time. When I finally got my first Serious Relationship after we had Sex about 5 five times the normal Way, I instinctively started feeling like I wanted to tie her up like an X on the Bed. No one taught me this, no one showed me any Videos or Magazines about this, the ideas just started coming into my head naturally. And when I Did it, immediately I wanted to Whip her. But she didn't like that idea too much and started getting really afraid. I think it was HER Reaction that made me feel like I was doing something wrong, that made me Switch the way I thought. I Tried to get her to Whip me, but she wanted no part of it. And we broke up right after that. I believe it was the Realization that we were very different Sexually that broke us up. So that kind of Traumatized me a little, because I kept getting rejected every time I acted on my Instinctive Sexual Desires. This begins to affect how I felt about myself. I started feeling like I was Weird like maybe I was a Serial Killer who was just developing into a Serial Killer or something like that. I wanted more than anything else to Understand what was happening to me, and WHY? Why did I desire these things so much, and why was I insistent upon them, even if it meant breaking up with the Girls I loved just to get them? So I spent a lot of time reading Psychology Books, and Sexual Psychology Books, and Astrology Books, and even a bunch of Self Help Books, just to see if I could make any Sense of all this. What I found was BDSM was written in almost every single SEX manual ever written, and they Approach the Subject as if it is Natural Human Behavior. But when I studied the Sexual Psychology books they Wrote about BDSM as being "Abnormal" or "Insane" behavior. So then I had to dig deeper to find out, "Am I crazy or not?" And what I found out was the people who wrote the Psychology Books were Christians who thought that if they said everyone who Pracitices BDSM was "Insane" then everyone would adopt that opinion and people would not do it. Well that was Wrong. I Learned that BDSM is natural Instinctive Behavior for people all over the World, in every single culture in the World, I also learned that Human Sacrifice evolved from the Practice of BDSM. And it all was Instinctive not Learned Behavior. So then I had to learn Why? What is the Purpose of it all. And in Studying Religion and Philosophy I found lots of Answers in Buddhism where they make associations between Pain and Ridding one's self of Bad Karma. In other words the Whipping and Torturing was a method of releasing Bad Karma from the Body. I found this in Buddhist and Hindu Teachings. I Compared this with things I knew about such as Working out, building Muscles, you have to experience Pain in order to actually Build the Muscles, the people who Grow and Succeed the most in Life are those who challenge themselves to experience discomfort. A plant grows best when covered with Shit. The more you look, the more you can see similar patterns in life to explain why BDSM is here in this World. And what is even more fascinating to me, is that when people all around the World Fantasize about BDSM, they usually picture the exact same things in their minds, they Dream the exact same Dreams, the exact same style Clothes, Whips, Chains, everything goes according to a Specific Pattern. Which is really Awesome in my eyes because this was Proof that there was something happening that was Larger than Life itself here. It was all happening for a Purpose. A reason. And I believe that we are suppose to be Whipped and Tortured to bring together and Understand the Differences between the Sexually Sadisitc Mentalities, and the Masochistic mentalities, and by understanding each of these, They come together, and display the very essence and meaning of LOVE itself. It is Proof that Love is real. And THAT is it's purpose. It is a way of Showing Love and Devotion, to each other, and to Kali (Or the Spiritual R ealm) however you want to define it. So how did You know that this is something You Wanted to do? There was never any Question about what I wanted to do, at the same time I started producing Sperm inside my body, my mind started thinking about BDSM things, and as I got older the thoughts grow Stronger and more Vivid. So it was not really a Question of what I wanted, it was more of How can I make these Dreams come True. THAT is the real question on most people's minds. How can they make their Fantasies come True? What do You enjoy during the Rituals besides being Whipped?
Usually my Rituals begin with We go out Dressed up and Party on the Town, at first we completely try to forget what we are going to do. But the Domina is Dressed in a Deep V Latex Dress to get me Horny. As the night progresses she gets me horny both by how she Looks and Subtle things she says. She casually waits for me to start talking, cause that's when she knows I am REALLY getting Horny is when I start Talking and telling her what I want her to do to me.
But until then we just act like it is a Regular Date. Then she might invite the Girls to come and Watch her Whip me. Then we would conduct a Romance Ritual Kissing and Hugging for about a Half hour. Then She would Dominate me for about 15 Minutes leading me around to all the girls so each one could play with my Balls and Dick and pet me like a Dog, then she would whip my butt with a Ridding Crop to behave. Things like that. Then The Girls might all Grab me and Drag me to the Table and Chain me down like and X tight then Lock me down with Pad Locks and Gag me so I can't beg them to stop. Then There is an Anointing where a small bit of Special Oil like Vicks Vapor Rub is wiped on the Center of my Chest as the Goddess who Conducts the Ritual Says a Prayer and Offers my Body as a Human Sacrifice to Kali. Then the Girls will all Dance around me to Tribal Music as they Wave Incense, and Feather Dusters over my Body. Then the Goddess will rub my Balls and Dick with Ice, and rub Ice all over my Body until I shiver and shake. Then She will rub Hot Oil on my Body to Warm me up. Then Drip Hot Candle Wax all over my body for about 15 minutes to a half hour. Then she will Scratch off the Wax usually trying to make it hurt as she Scratches. Then She would Wash everything off with a quick Sponge Bath. Then Towel Dry with a Fuffy Towel Then She might tease me with a Feather Duster for a while Then Rub Alcohol on my Body and Possibly light it on Fire then put it out quick Then she Would stick Acupuncture Pins all over down into the Muscles of my Body about 200 to 300 Pins. Then she would take time playing with the pins to make them wiggle in my skin Then she might attach electric wires to the pins using electric clips then she would shock my whole body in pulses using a button she presses on and off like a door bell button. Then she would remove the clips and use a different Shocker to brush over the pins and everytime the shocker touches a pin the electricity would flow down that pin into my body, so as she brushes the electricity over my body quickly it is like tingles of zaps of electric Shocks all over my body. Then she would pull the pins out as slowly as she can to try to make each one hurt as much a she can as she pulls them out. Then She would rub my body with alcohol again just to watch me squirm from the pain of the alcohol on the pin holes. Then she would Caress my body with Oil, then Lightly Burn me with a Soldering Iron in quick light drags across my skin as she delights in hearing the Soldering Iron Sizzle as it drags along the Skin lightly. The she would stand up and Tease me with a Whip while making me anticipate the Pain, she would say things like "feel this whip?" "I want you to imagine how much this is going to hurt." "I'm gonna whip you so hard, you're gonna scream so much, you will not believe how Hard I am whipping you." This will begin to Scare me even before she starts whipping me, so that every time she Whips me it will Scare me even more. This makes my Balls tingle and I start to get horny even before she starts to Whip me. Then when She whips me I feel REALLY Horny like I want to Cum but I can't because nothing is touching my Dick. If a woman was to carefully whip my dick she could probably make me cum, but no one ever has made me cum like this yet. It is a Dream of mine. Then after I am struggling wildly and completely MAD at her because she won't stop, then she will continue a while, then stop and make me Horny again, and show me Love, and affection, she will Pet my Head, tell me she Loves me, and Caress me lightly with oil. then Caress me with Ice. She repeats Whipping me a Couple of times while adding different kinds of Torture in between the Whipping. Such as Clothes Pins, Electro-Shock, Burning, Scare Tactics, Suffocation, Choking, and some of the Girls leave turn off the lights and walk out the door saying goodbye acting like they aren't coming back. Then they comeback about 10 minutes later. That is a good scare Tactic, but it is kind of Dangerous. You should always have someone watching to make sure the Sacrifice is not going to Choke on their spit or something while you're gone. The Razors, and Cutting with the Whip and all the Bloody stuff has to be done last, because otherwise it would get Blood all over the Whips and Fling Blood Splatter all over the Walls and everything. So all the really Bloody stuff has to wait until the very end. Then the last part of the Ritual the Goddess Gets up on me and Makes Love to me as she Sits on top of my Chained up Body and she Practices Aiming the Knife like she is getting ready to stab me in the exact center of my Chest. She Raises the Knife up, then brings it down to the spot where she is planning to stab me. She might even ask me "Is that the right spot?" as if to Confirm that I am Still Ready to die for her. Then I will usually say yes or move my hands in the direction to center up the knife. Then she will practice that Spot and each time she Raises the Knife up, she will bring it down Harder and Faster letting it hit my Chest Harder and Faster until it pokes into my Chest and Bleeds a Little. Then She will say "Ok, I'm Ready, lets do this" And she will Lightly Drag the Knife up and Down my Chest as she holds her head up high and Looks down at me without lowering her head. She teases me with the knife to make me Cum, and waits for that Moment and she Waits until I have Finished Cuming then she Would Stab me as Hard as she Can through the Breast Bone and into my Chest then she would lean down and Kiss me until I die. But usually she just makes me Cum then Kisses me, then says "If I let you live you have to Promise to be my Slave okay?" And by that time I am completely exhausted so I say "YES" by shaking my head. Then she usually leaves me Chained up while she Cleans my Body off or a Girl Dressed in a Nurses Outfit will clean my body off leaving me Chained up as she does it. Then the Nurse or the Goddess will unchain me and make Love to me usually we transfer to a Bed to make Love in Front of everyone to show that the Ritual is about Love not Hate. I usually am made to Cum 2 times while Chained up, then another time Making Love. And that is usually what I like. Variations are doing it outdoors in the open air of night especially on a Full moon night. Or while Camping on the Beach. But sometimes the Rituals only last an Hour, sometimes they last 4 or 5, but the longest I have ever been Chained Down is 3 hours Straight of Constant Torture. That was AWESOME! But we had 2 hours of Celebration Time, and 1 hour Romance, 15 Minutes of Domination, before she Chained me up, then we made Love for an Hour after all that. I Will Add more Questions to this List as I am Asked about them. And Please don't be shy to ask, me, I am not an Asshole, I am a Nice Guy, and I actually feel flattered when people ask me about stuff like this. It shows you CARE, which makes me feel good, not offended in any way. So please, if you have a Question, talk to me. I promise I won't stalk you, I would rather YOU Stalk ME! :)
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